Uma carta de 01/02/2025

Dear FutureMe,

Recently I've find myself thinking about life, future, dreams... 

I remember when I was a kid and my dream was working with music, singing for a good audience and all the things a successful musician do, act in great movies and everything related to art. As I grew up all those dreams were simply gone, I never stoped loving it, but I just decided to look forward something more possible and that would actually pay me for, something that without luck I could make it.

After all this time, during 2023 applying for the first time to college, trying again during 2024 and now waiting for the results to come out I really wonder what my future is going to look like. My college application was completely built with History and Political sciences as major, I related everything to those areas. In my first application I thought about music, remember? It didn't go well – I guess that is why I changed – and I thought it just wasn't to be, it wasn't for me. 

After Lian's passed I started to be quite interested in one direction, which is what reminded me of my childhood dream: youth 1D. Relating everything that is going on my mind right now I just think that perhaps my college acceptance is exactly what is gonna give a north to my career.

 Studying at USA is the perfect opportunity to connect with people whose dreams are related to mine. Maybe, I can find people who can play, help me write, people who can produce, even people who can sing with me and then create something good. College also will provide me connections who can deal with marketing of the songs. I can literally create something that could actually work, you know... That is the opportunity of a lifetime. It kills me to have to wait 'till march to see if I will ever be able to reach it. 

Surely I'll keep my history major. If music sadly doesn't work, at least I'll have tried and I still will have something I can work with and get paid for it. On the other hand of my dream: how might working with music affect my relationship with God? I mean, I don't wanna go to hell. But I must be very strong in my mind to not screw my faith. Does it even worth it? I have really been haunted by this feeling. I want to go after my dreams, but I don't want it to mean going against God. I won't sell my body of course and nothing that we might see nowdays with some artists, I don't want to be anything like them so I guess no problem, right? 

Well, I just had all of those words in my mind and I needed to pull it out for someone, and there is no better person than you to share this with. I do hope at the moment you're reading this your life is working out, I hope college had been gentle to you and you're in somewhere amazing. If so, don't forget where you belong(1d song hahah), and don't forget what you dreamed about. If you're out there in the US, do it! Find the right people and go after your dreams, build you life. Never forget: you have to be brave, have courage to sing, to point your truth. If you don't, sorry, you'll never know if it could have worked... I trust you! Don't waste the chance that was given to you. 

If not, don't panic, you got it and don't let dreams haunt you. They are important, but sometimes we have to deal a little bit more with reality. You can make some course, start working, gain some money, build your life and for all the matters, watch the video you made years ago about your conversation with Rosselini and keep doing what you're doing. 

Best, 

You when having lots of thoughts.